HMFOG

I recently went through a major depression period during this Summer. I went through a break up and it caused anxiety and my chronic depression blew up. I exploded into a puddle of self-loathing and despair. This was the second time in a year. I am doing much better now, I went to my physician and am seeing a counselor. I am also on medication that helps tremendously.  But one thing that has completely healed me is God. I am praying daily with a small devotion. Daily devotion has built an amazing relationship between God and I. Praying in the morning and afternoon, small prayers throughout the day and evening. I am falling so in love with God knowing that I have an amazing companion that will hold me when I need Him the most. I can center my energy, love and loneliness on God and everything is better. My counselor tells me that I am too centered around what other people think and how they feel. I am too worried about pleasing everyone and that is where most of my anxiety and depression stem from. So I am giving it to somebody I don’t have to worry about not being enough or too much. I don’t have to worry about God saying it’s not good enough, you’re too clingy, the way you feel is wrong or I am just doing everything wrong. I have a Redeemer who redeems all, graciously accepts and loves everything I have to give. It puts me in my place and allows me to be myself for everyone else.

For anyone who is going through something, it can be anything, try daily devotion. Give yourself to God, prayer is just talking, don’t be afraid to use emotion either. To offer and make yourself vulnerable is the greatest gift to God. He will look into your heart, take away the pains and fear and fill you with love. 

Psalm 139: 1-6